什么是最难的部分？
不能够做你用来做什么的。 Right now，我是最慢的步行者在那里。 I was always a fast walker. People were always telling me, "Slow down. You walk too fast."
现在对我来说，这样做，就很难。 It's a hard thing to accept. I don't know if I'll ever be as fast as I used to be. The thing that calms me down is knowing that I'm still able to walk.
您也提到楼梯。
我以前很喜欢爬楼梯。 I was a very physical, active person. If I saw an elevator or a staircase, I would take the stairs because I saw a challenge. I loved pushing myself.
我现在得太累。 Walking, as an amputee, I'm burning twice as many calories as regular people, because you're working more muscles.
它很难。 You've got to have good endurance. That's why a lot of amputees give up. It's not easy.
什么感觉就像当你能够把你的第一个步骤？
说实话，我把我的第一个步骤的时候，我并没有太多去想它。 My friend Michelle was videotaping it. Once I saw the video, I started crying like a little baby.
这起事故是因祸得福。 Yes, I did lose a quarter of my body, but I have peace right now. I'm a stronger person. I will have my occasional breakdown and cry, but I'll get back up. It's been an amazing journey. You learn a lot about yourself.
我还记得当我去通过温伯格博士接受检查的时候，我坐在轮椅上，他看见我，说：“上帝保佑你。你会走。”
我当时想，“哇，这家伙不知道我什么，他已经告诉我。”
这是一件事教会了我：你必须要有同情心。 I'm a more compassionate person. I was very self-centered before my accident. I did my thing, only worried about myself. Now it's, "No, you've got to think about other people and help people out."
你说，你学到了很多，从这个旅程。 What are some of the most important lessons?
接受我的局限，成为一个更好的人，爱我是谁。 I'm a gay man. Never accepted it before, but now, this is me. I've gone through enough.
是什么在你的日常要做到这一点曾经是容易的最难的事情？
为了让进出椅子或站起来。 That's why I’m focused on having a really strong upper body, because you do not believe how much that helps.
这是一件事我告诉截肢者：你的上肢力量的工作，因为这将真正帮助你。
尽管所有的挑战，你已经谈到了如何，总体而言，你更快乐。
我告诉人们这就像在同一时间通过天堂和地狱去。 I'm a much better person, a happier person now. Before, I was addicted to sleeping pills because I was so stressed out.
现在，我可以睡觉睡到我想要的。 I used to drink just two cups of coffee and I was all jittery for the rest of the day. Now, I could drink a cup of coffee at 8 o'clock at night and be stress free and calm.
我的血压是现在好多了。 I have the blood pressure of a 20-year-old.
这是为什么？
因为我很冷静，强调免费。 Though I don't recommend losing your legs to lower your blood pressure!
我已经学会了关消极了我的生活。 Keep what's good and get rid of the bad. That is what's helped me get so far. You don't have to be a brain surgeon to figure that out. Too bad I didn't do it before my accident, but it's never too late.
你能和我谈的幻肢痛（从身体部位疼痛的感觉，走了）？
这是一个大不了的截肢者。 With me, it was exactly one month after my amputation. I would feel my legs. I could tell you exactly where my feet were. I would sit up from my bed at the hospital and feel my limbs constantly just hanging down.
随着时间的推移，它模糊了。 You can feel your feet, but you can't tell where they're at. It got pretty bad at times. It got so bad that I could not sleep. It was hard.
现在，我确实感到它，它是一个持续的刺痛。 It just feels like your foot falls asleep. It's nothing that's going to keep me from doing my things. I block it out.
你最害怕的是什么？
落。 When kids learn to walk, they have no fear. They don't think about falling. As an adult, you get up and you're already thinking, I'm going to fall. You feel unstable.
我一直在做无辅助行走。 My physical therapist says, "Keep your mind distracted. Don't think about walking. The more you think, the harder it is." She told me, "Count the months backwards."
我这样做，只是走了。 Kept on, continued to walk, unassisted.
什么是这样的感觉呢？
解放。 It felt like these legs were really mine. Walking was a little awkward, but I was doing it. As I walked, some random guy came up to me and said, "That is awesome!" He put that big old smile on my face. To know that you can walk, it's amazing.
如何拥有丰富的经验一直在UCSF？
我得到真正的感觉。 I don't see them as people taking care. I see them as family now. It's on a first-name basis.
我从每天一说，这是因祸得福。 Maybe a year or two from now，我会回过头来，说：“这是最好的事情，发生在我身上。”
这并不容易，但你成为一个坚强的人。 You find out who your real friends and family are. You learn to really love yourself.
为什么你脸上有笑容？
我会走路，有从未见过我只想说，一个素不相识的人“上帝保佑你。” To have somebody just come up and say that you, that's a powerful thing.
或者有人会只是走过来对我说：“你使我产生移动，因为我看到你经历什么，你有胆量前来做你必须做的工作出了什么。” It's nice to know that people see that.
但我不是超人。 I'm not something special. I'm just somebody that wants to walk, but it is nice to know that your effort, your hard work, is paying off.
我可以去睡觉了，晚上和拍拍我的背说：“你今天做了工作的地狱。”
